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Please don’t get tired of me.

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It happens every time. People lose interest in me. They get tired of me. Suddenly, they don’t bother hitting me up anymore. The conversations become shorter. They forget about me and I just become a distant memory. I wonder if it’s my fault sometimes. But then I realize that people never stay in my life. And there’s nothing I can do about it.

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Text Post Tue, May. 15, 2012 465 notes

Maybe In Another Universe, I Deserve You

thunderpopcola:

By GABY DUNN 

What if, in another universe, I deserve you?

Hear me out. There’s this philosopher from the 1890s named William James, and he coined this theory about “the multiverse” which suggests that a hypothetical set of multiple universes comprises everything that can possibly exist simultaneously.

Are you following? The entirety of space, time, matter and energy is all happening at once in different timelines: It’s the idea of parallel universes. Right? So okay, let’s presume the multiverse is real.

Well then, maybe somewhere in those infinite universes is one, or several, where I deserve you.

Maybe there’s a universe out there — happening now — where we end up together and when I close my eyes at night, I’m not dreaming the way a normal person would. Instead I’m seeing flashes of our lives in the multiverse. They’re not simple dreams because I miss you, right? They’re scientific, anachronistic visions.

For instance:

In this universe, I don’t want a family, but maybe in another, I’m more of the type to settle down. Maybe there’s a universe where you hold my hand while I give birth to our daughter in a white hospital room with pink flowers and fuzzy teddy bears on the window sill. Where we take family vacations and pose for dorky pictures in our neon bathing suits on the sands of a Florida beach. Where we curl up to watch a cheesy movie at the end of a long day in our big, green, suburban house once the kids have fallen asleep.

Maybe there’s a universe where we are middle-aged and taking our child to college and bickering over where to put her dresser or what posters she should hang up. Where you kiss her on the forehead ‘goodbye’ and we drive home in contented, proud silence, your fingers grazing my knuckles, our wedding rings glistening. Where we both have gray hair and we laugh and smile and hug and drink lemonade on the porch.

Maybe there’s a universe where that’s the life I want. Where I don’t second guess everything and I’m not afraid of commitment and of the future and of love. Maybe there’s a universe without all the noise in my head and the pride that makes me so fiercely independent and the coldness in my heart that I can turn on and off like a security fence.

Maybe there’s a universe where I’m the right person for you. Where I adore every nice thing you did for me without starting to resent you. A universe where you actually end up with someone who appreciates you. Where no one becomes a doormat. Where both of us can shed our baggage and curiosity and issues. A universe where we’re happy — without wondering if that happiness is some messed-up Jenga game ready to topple at the slightest quiver. A universe where we’re comfortable and sure, and we have cats.

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Mahirap talagang maging mag-isa. Yung tipong  buong buhay mo may makikilala kang kaibigan pero alam mong kakalimutan ka rin nila kahit na ikaw hindi ka nakalimot kahit kailan. Hindi mo alam kung hindi ka lang talaga tumatatak sa kanila o sadyang wala ka lang talagang kwentang kaibigan. Pinilit mong buuin pero sa huli ikaw pa rin at ikaw lang ang maiiwan.

Siguro ganoon lang talagang mabuhay. Nag-iisa ka namang pinanganak, bakit hindi ka pa masanay? Kailangan iyon sa buhay para makilala mo kung sino ka talaga. Minsan sa pag-iisa, makakapag-isip ka ng maigi.  Malalaman mong, oo, wala ka talagang karamay.

Naalala ko yung sinabi ng isa kong kaibigan. Hindi pa daw siya nakakahanap ng totoong kaibigan. Iyong tipong matalik na kaibigang makakasama mo kahit kailan. Napaisip ako noon na buti pa ako marami-rami naman akong naging kaibigan, pero ngayon naisip ko na ganon din pala ang nararamdaman ko. Marami lang akong kaibigang nagpapangiti  sa’kin no’n pero hindi ko na naman  nakaksama ngayon. Yung tipong andiyan lang sila, pero alam mong hindi sila magtatagal.

Noong mga panahon ding ‘yon, napaisip ako kung masama ba akong kaibigan sa kanya. Iniisip ko kung hindi ba ako naging tunay na kaibigan sa kanya at sinabi niya sa’kin ‘yon. Nasaktan ako no’n. Minsan hindi ko alam kung tama ba ang pakikitungo ko sa mga kaibigan ko. Lagi ko namang sinasabi sa kanila na kung may mali ako, sabihin lang sa’kin at hindi naman ako masasaktan. Pero minsan dahil alam nilang hindi ako nasasaktan, lagi na lang akong naisasantabi. Para bang wala naman talaga akong kwenta sa kanila. Hindi naman dahil kailangan magia akong espesyal sa kanila, pero pakiramdam ko kumbaga lahat sila mataas ako yung mababa. Iyong nararamdaman mong wala ka lang talaga sa grupo. Isa ka lang “ket-ket” kumbaga.

Hindi kasi narereciprocate yung pakikitungo mo sa kanila. Laging ganito at ganiyan ka mag-isip para sa kanila pero sila hindi eh. Ayokong maging ganito, pero anong magagawa ko kung lagi namang nagiging ganito ang nararamdaman mo.

Minsan naiinggit ka na lang sa mga palabas, bakit gano’n ka-genuine yung relasyon at pagkakaibigan nila? Pero nililinlang na naman tayo ng media, hindi ganiyan sa tunay na buhay.

Hindi naman sa distansya nasusukat ang pagiging tunay na kaibigan, hindi rin sa oras o panahon na magkasama kayo kundi sa kalidad ng pagtrato nyo sa isa’t isa. Kahit saglit lang iyon at pagkatapos no’n ay malayo na kayo saa isa’t isa kung alam mong naging totoo iyon lahat at nagi kayong masaya. At higit sa lahat walang nakahihigit o nakalalamang, alam mong magtatagal ang ala-alang iyon pang habang buhay.

Gusto ko lang namang maging masaya at kahit papano’y maramdaman kahit saglit lang na espesyal ako. Gusto ko lang minsang magpalinlang sa media at maniwalang magiging gano’n ang buhay ko.

Sa palagay ko hindi ako tunay na kaibigan sa ginawa ko. Ayokong magsabi ng ganito sa harap nila dahil alam kong mas lalo silang mawawala. Mahal ko yung mga yon kahit na minsan ganito yung pakiramdam ko, ako lang mag-isa. Palibhasa kasi sila ang nasandalan ko noong nagsimula akong mamuhay ng mag-isa. Sila yung parang napapanood mo sa TV na walang nagkatuluyang loveteam kahit kailan, at kung may love story man ay lihim.

Pero etong post na ‘to, rant ko rin sa mga dati ko pang kaibigan, kung nasan man kayo. Mahal ko din kayo. Kahit ala-ala nyo na lang ang pinanghahawakan ko.






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duamuteffe:

burpees4water:

EVERY TIME YOU REBLOG YOU GIVE 1-5 CENTS TO CHARITY: WATER

More RE-BLOGS = More DONATIONS = More LIVES SAVED

100% of donations directly fund water projects for communities in need, and we prove each one using photos and GPS coordinates on Google Maps.

$20  = 1 CHILD CLEAN WATER FOR 20 YEARS

CLICK HERE TO GIVE WATER   &  MAKE SOMEONE’S CHRISTMAS

Thank-you for your support and Happy Christmas!

Richard :-)

This is a good charity, guys.  Give if you can, reblog if you can’t!

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“Ang pag-ibig ay para lang sa mga walang self-esteem at ang tingin sa sarili ay hindi kumpleto kung wala ang minamahal.”


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